The blog everyone has been waiting for but no one who has ever been on a trip like this ever wants to write.
So here I am sitting in America trying to write a blog that would do those nine months I spent traveling the world justice. I probably shouldn't have drug my feet for so long and wrote this a month or so ago, but I have my reasons or at least I like to think I do for not doing it sooner. I like to think maybe it was because every time I sat down to write this at some point I start crying and a rush of memories flood my mind…. happy memories, sad memories, memories that I can't explain, but that will always be apart of me. Besides that writing my last blog means finally putting a cap on the journey, finally putting an ending to a trip that some days I never thought would ever really end. Its crazy to me how living through some moments can seem like a lifetime but thinking back on nine months can seem like a blink of an eye. This trip to me was one of the hardest yet most beauitfull things I have ever done. So even though I could say a million things, there are so many directions I could take this blog in I guess I will just say whats been put on my heart and leave it at that.
I think for me and Gods relationship it was this crazy beautiful
story of this Pennsylvania homebody with a passion to pursue her Makers heart and explore His nations and the plans He has for her life. It was this long awaited journey that came and left all too quickly but that changed the way she looked at life.
God, believe it or not, sometimes gives us what we least expect because He knows what is best for us and if there is one thing not only this trip but the time to follow after the trip have taught me is its just that. Im finally starting to learn that sometimes God ends a certain season in our lives to make room for an even greater season that is just ahead. A relationship with God is all about surrendering our best for His better. I am aware that I am walking back into the same place as when I left but I am also aware that it is as a different person, a changed person, a person who still has so much growing to do, but a person who is in love with God and who is never going back to who I used to be. Shane Claiborne once said "Most good things have been said far too many times and just need to be lived." This trip has taught me how to live, how to truly live.
Lastly, Thank you to all those who supported, loved, prayed, and believed in me.
-Cayla
